Tilterstorms

Everytime I post a results oriented graph/post, I get fucked.  Call it tilty, call it supersitious, call it stupid...I'm never posting results/goals/monthlies again.  So my blogging was short lived huh lol.  First two days back from break 2k hands down 10 buy ins :(    Every fish is owning me.  Over rolled or not I'm very close (2 buy ins away or so which would be my worst downswing ever) to dropping back down to 50nl!!!  The hell with any monthly goals I had of having my best month ever and putting in a ton of volume.  It's not gonna happen this month.  The worst part about this is that I tilted away 2 buy ins needlessly and knowingly, it's stuff like that that really separates the good players and the meh.  I guess I'm still in the category of meh and really don't know how to get beyond that lack of emotional control/anger I get.    

So this was basically a rant blog and while I could delete it right now as I feel better already, I won't.  Besides this is also kinda what the point of a blog is as well right.  I hope you guys get one good  thing out of this at least...being results oriented is lame.  Yea I'm sucking right now but it's a small sample and I am a winner at this game...2k hands won't change that.  So when you feel down remember not to focus on results so much, just keep trying to improve your game.  Do what you need to do to get the bad feelings out of your system and move on...because everything and everyone else is.

Here's to a brighter future.

+1 for needlessly paying 80 bucks in fees tilt cashing out 2/3 of your online roll lol